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This memorial website was created in the
 memory of our Son, Dean Nicholas who was born in Caerphilly South Wales on January 11, 1983 and tragically passed away on July 14, 2005 at the age of 22. We will always love and remember him and cherish his memory forever.

      
Dean was a happy child and always looked on the bright side of life. He had a mischeivious and cheeky character. Dean had many friends when growing up. But his little gang consisted of Daniel, Darren, and Winston! Daniel and Darren's mum Tina virtually become a surrogate mother to Dean. You never knew what they would get up to next. I would always know where to find him! I have photographs of them all in Nursery age four. They looked as if butter wouldn't melt in their mouths! At Comprehensive school Arwyn and Martyn added to that list!
                   




 However, throughout Dean's life his brother Steve focused in every part of it. They were rarely apart. Although, they were very different people. Dean loved to be dirty and up to his elbows in grease and oil. Steve hated that! Dean's bunk bed was never made and his clothes hung up on the floor! Most people who didn't know them thought they were twins. Dressing them the same didn't help, they both hated wearing the same clothes.  




Dean liked nothing more than making people laugh, he had the most amazing sense of humour and would have us crying with laughter. His favourite comdian was Peter Kay. He had all his DVD's and was able to recite scripts word for word. While Dean was in Iraq, Max and Paddy was shown on TV. Dean couldn't wait to see it and was waiting for the repeat of it. It was repeated one month after Dean left us. Dean also answered the phone with little catch phrases, which unfortunately I cannot write on here for fear of offending people. But boy were they funny! When Dean phoned me, he always said, 'Hello Mother, how is life on Walton's Mountain?'. Knowing full well that we as a family are so unlike the Waltons! Dean grew up into a confident and focused young man, we were so proud of him. 




At 17 Dean joined the Army. Although at first he tried to resist the disiplined environment, he soon became a dedicated and ambitious young soldier.During training he would come home on weekends. You never knew who would be turning up with him. One day Dean brought home a friend. After Lunch he went with Merrick to his home and there he met Merrick's sister Gemma. Within one year they had married . Nick and I tried to talk them out of marrying as we felt they were too young. Dean being 18 and Gemma 17. How wrong we were to try and persuade them not to marry. 31st March 2001 was a very special day for them both. If they had listened to us, Dean would not have experienced his own little family unit. 

In February 2003 Dean and his brother went to Iraq where he became involved in hostile situations. It was a very worrying time for us, with both our boys living and working in a war zone. Dean made lots of friends during his time in the Army. In particular Gaz and Scotty became a familiar name to us. We would hear about their latest exploits at their BBQ's. At that time another person became friends with not only Dean, but Steve and the whole family. Enter Chris Kennedy!! Chris become very special to us. He has been a constant support to us, especially when Nick and I had to go to Germany when hearing of Dean's passing. Chris told us of how the two of them when in Iraq would set aside time to listen to a CD of Love songs and cry their eyes out remembering their loved ones! At the end of those sessions they would then put on dance music to help change their mood. 



On 12th July 2004, Gemma gave birth to Kaitlin in Wales. Dean managed to fly from Germany to the hospital with minutes to spare. Dean was so proud of Kaitlin. She is so like her dad. I can see him standing there saying 'That's my girl'


Dean returned again in November 2004 to Iraq on peace keeping duties and arrived home at the end of April 2005. During the next 10 weeks Dean returned home to Wales and purchased a Yamaha R6 motorcycle. His dad tried to persuade Dean not to buy it. But it was no use, Dean had set his heart on the blasted bike. He returned back to Osnabruck with his bike on the 1st June 2005. Little did I know that at 3am that dark morning it would be the last time I would hold Dean and see him ever again. I didnt realise that, the kiss goodbye was going to be a kiss goodbye forever... 


Dean joined a Motorcycle club within the Army called the 'Screaming Eagles'. Dean himself nicknamed them the 'Tweeting Budgies'! 
Every Thursday evening the club would go out on 'Ride Outs'. Dean enjoyed his Thursday evenings. On Thursday 14th July 2005 Dean was returning home from the ride. He collided with an oncoming car. It was to be Dean's last ride...
 


Dean's funeral took place on the 28th July 2005 with full military honours. The pall bearers were amazing. To watch those boys carry their friends coffin, upstanding and dignified was heartbreaking, especially when the tears rolled silently down their faces.... 

Nothing can prepare a parent for the shock and pain that is felt when you lose a child. It is life changing. The world as you know it will never be the same. Part of you will die with your child. The longing for your child is completely overwhelming. Nick and I will spend the rest of our days asking Why? But there will never be an answer. We try to hold on to the belief that one day we will be reunited with Dean.
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How we miss you so…

A second son born to me
On a cold January day in eighty-three.
A lively lad with a cheeky smile
Always happy, never cried.
Loved to show off, be a clown
Never let things get you down.
Ripped trousers, dirty knees
Dishevelled clothes for all to see.
Argumentative, knew it all
But somehow knew when to play ball.
A big boy now, you joined the army
Everyone thought that you were barmy!
A sweetheart girlfriend you loved so much
You married her in such a rush!
Off to war I hear you say
I prayed for your safe return everyday.
Baby on the way you need to come
Just in time to see your little one
A year long later we hear the news
That angel wings that you have grew.
Our hearts are breaking, the days a long
How can it be so; that you have gone?
Our lives are empty our precious son has gone
To a different place - we don’t belong.
Tears fall freely, heavy hearts we carry
We will always be so very sorry.
And how we desperately miss you so….
Maria Nicholas
6th October 2005

I Just Lost You
How can I put your dying into words?
Are there words powerful enough
To describe the death of you,
And this lost, pain-filled me?
Where do all these tears come from?
Endlessly, they flow from my hurting eyes.
I wish they could drown out the awfulness
Of being in a life I don't recognize anymore
Who am I now, without you?
I feel I've lost myself in a fog.
A mother without her child -
That's not supposed to be.
What will happen to me now?
A mother can't stop being a mother.
I know I shall go on loving you,
Your life has not ended for me.

by Monica Eblen - South Bend, Indiana
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I have now created a Facebook group for Dean. You can visit it @ http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=5789476086&ref=mf

Dean's passing was reported in the South Wales Echo. The article can be read at following link:-www.icwales.icnetwork.co.uk/0100news/0200wales/tm_method=full%26objectid=15799555%26siteid=50082-name_page.html
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memory of our Son
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Click here to see Dean Nicholas's
Family Tree
Tributes and Condolences
Four Years   / Mum &. Dad
Our darling, darling boy, we can't believe we are entering our fourth year without you. Nothing has changed Dean. We still wait for you, we still wait for you to walk through the door telling us it's all been a bad joke. Everytime I answer the p...  Continue >>
HAPPY VALENTINES SWEET ANGEL..   / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (FEV. 14, 2009 )
DEAR DEAN...SWEET ANGEL, HAPPY VALENTINES..LOVE ALWAYS..IRENE, MOMMY TO ANGEL..KAYLA XAVIER..FOREVER.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET ANGEL..   / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER 4EVER (JAN. 11 ,2009 )
Dear Dean Happy Birthday sweet angel...May your special day be  sunny and beautiful...just like you.God bless and give strenght to all those that love and miss you so much...love always...irene, mommy to angel...kayla Xavier forever.. ...  Continue >>
Happy Birthday Dean   / Karen/Kassie Mom (Connected By Angels )
Birthday Boy xXxXx   / Amy Kadir (your cousin )
Hiya couz, Happy birthday Babe, I wish sooooo Much you was hear and we could celebrate in style, I know i havent wrote on here, but like mam said, None of us have forgot you, we would never do that, But it gets harder and harder to come on here and l...  Continue >>
Happy Easter  / Parents Of Angel Vanessa     Read >>
One year on...  / Mum     Read >>
my cousin  / Amy (cousin)    Read >>
Nine Months....  / Mam     Read >>
happy to know  / Paul [acky] Atkinson (mate in the army )    Read >>
so very sad  / Paula     Read >>
Broken Hearts  / Mam &. Dad     Read >>
missing you  / Damion Williams (good friend )    Read >>
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET ANGEL..  / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER 4EVER (JAN. 11 ,2009 )    Read >>
My handsome nephew dean.  / Aunty Tracey (Aunty)    Read >>
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Dean's Photo Album
Dean & Me
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